Just like they warnerned me for.

"Nikki, when you start this new school you will basicly loose most of your old friends."

"Yeah I know", I said. "But me and my closest friends have a strong bond! We won't loose contact, sis!"

Oh, how wrong I was. Its been a while now. My old friends is having their own fun life now. They're all happy and such. They arent thinking about the fact that they havent been talking with me in a good while. I can't blame them. If you are living a better life out there, then I understand why. But it gives me a sad feeling.
I'm also tired of being the one who always makes contact again. It makes me feel desperate and hopeless.
But I'm not desperate now. Nor sad, nor angry. I'm just... I don't know how to say it.
So there. I'm just going to wait and see if someone actually reacts.
If someone actually makes contact to me because they want to, to know how I am doing; so I can ask them how theyre doing, not because they had no other choice and I was the second best person to go to.
I wonder if they forget that I have a heart too?

Oh well. Who knows, maybe I'll start having a fun life too?

I'll just let the river flow.